I know I just wrote about my pups a few days ago, but I will say sometimes they just make me stop what I am doing and ponder the world, or more accurately, my place in it.
I know I used to do this a lot when my boys were growing up too. You see your children do something or say something, develop their own personalities, and you stop and think to yourself how amazing it was that you gave birth to this little human who one day could grow up to be the president of the United States, or maybe the Unabomber. You never know. My point is when you are raising your children you are constantly in a state of wonder and anxiety. What if you fuck it up? What if, even though you had the best intentions, your child just grows up and is a dick. Let me tell you, I have spent a lot of sleepless nights worrying about that. Now, so far, both of my boys are good but there is still time. So the anxiety never really ends.
But when you raise dogs, it is different. The love and affection that they have for you is unconditional. And more importantly, you don’t have to worry about what profession they choose in life, did they finish college, can they provide for their family, etc. Now, I am not saying there aren’t dogs out there that aren’t dicks. A friend of mine has a little ugly pug named Frank. He hates me. And he is a dick. Barks constantly at me as he waddles his way around the house. The two of us just stare at each other in hatred. But dogs that are dicks are rare.
Case in point, this is what I woke up to this morning:
How long had he sat there, waiting for me to open my eyes? He wasn’t whining to go out and pee, he had food and water in his bowls, his toy was right there with him. Nope, he was just sitting there waiting for me to wake up and be with him. Not do anything for him, just love him. That is so powerful of a feeling to know that someone loves you so much in this world they just wait, so patiently, for you to wake up.
I know my boys and hubby love me but sometimes I feel like they hold that love as something that is just a given. Not my little Truman and Pablo though. I wish everyone in this world could have that feeling of love that a dog gives you, even if it is just for one time. It does a lot to your self-esteem. Makes you feel worthy in life.
The only worry I have about my pups is that at times I feel like I may take their love for me as a given. Us humans, we just do not understand love as they do.
Not surprising, I guess, that there are more humans that are dicks than dogs.